Old MacDonalds

Do you still remember the song that we always sang when we were still in kindergarten?
Old MacDonald had a farm, ee i ee i oh! ……

Today, I am going to use this song, for my visual communication Project I. What to do for this lyric? Ha~~have you ever visualize any lyrics before? Hmm…we can draw, can make a model....

I am doing a model, can just imagine the Old MacDonald had a farm, so there will be a small wooden house, some animals like chickens, ducks, cows, horses, sheep and of course the farmer! It seems like doing that primary school homework. And I have to learn those colouring stuffs all over again…somehow comes to these art works, I miss a gal…à Tnee

When we were still in the college, she used to do the art works for the assignments, we need not to worry the art work part, and I just need to concentrate on the power point presentation and the info searching. What a perfect group!! :p

Miss her so much…

Walking Tour...

A nice Flash…it’s true that we have Family, Friends and the Love one accompany us to walk along the journey…

I am only 22, but I have some relatives and friends leaving…they stop walking with me now…I am so sad at that time, but I didn’t think that they are looking at me, hoping me to continue my journey…

Once again and again, I am so afraid that my friends leaving me…this is not the first time I feel scare, cause she met an accident, just pass by the “GUI MEN GUAN”… she is my best friend and I don’t want anything happen to her again…

Even my parents...

While I was 5 years old, my mom told me that she wanna left this house, she wanna go to another places…in other meaning is that she don’t want me anymore…although I don’t really understand what she meant about at that time, I can just understand that she said she wanna leave me…I cried and cried, keep telling her that I want her, I want her…both of us cried until I slept at my moms thigh…when I woke up, I saw that she is still beside me…I was so happy and I knew that she will walk with me until she really feel tired…

When I am in secondary school, my father and my sis always quarrel, every time after quarrel, my father will drink lots of beer and start talking nonsense to me…telling me that I have to study hard, he told me that he dreamt about his mother and father, which is my grandma and grandpa…he told me that this maybe a sign telling him his life would be very short…very near to his parents…I know what he meant about, but I just told him, he is very healthy and strong enough, he still has lots of stuffs hasn’t finished yet…I haven’t graduated from Uni… I haven’t work and earn much $$ and buy him a bungalow…etc

They are now still with me, walking with me along the journey, giving advices, helping me in any problems…I hopes and I wish everyone beside me is healthy and safe…that’s very enough to me already…

Presentation…Performance…Studies…

It’s the 4th week of the class, I already have tons of assignments to work on. The latest is the assignment of Public Speaking, going to introduce EGYPT!!! After I went to MATTA fair, got all the price of the trip to Egypt, and search lots of information about this mysterious country, I manage to start my power point now.

What comes to your mind when you first hear this country?

To me, I will think about the pyramid there. A perfect building that I never thought that it can be built at that time. All the stones are so heavy and the triangle cut is so well. You can simply just click to the search engine, you will get a lot of the info about this country.

It would be nice if I can have a chance to visit there. *_*

Some of my course mate doing others countries such as Mongolia, Italy, China and etc. I can’t wait for tomorrow’s presentation. It is so exciting to have a class telling us about all the attraction places at those countries. And of course, I will try my best to present Egypt well to everyone in the class. Anyone who wants to know more about Egypt, hehe~~ can come to me… :p

Life is not that tough at UCSI. Those “seniors” take care about me this little “junior”, telling all the funny things in UCSI, and helping in all the assignments.

Next Tuesday is the Mooncake Festival, we are going to have a celebration just before the actual day, which is 27/9/04 (Monday). I am going to perform Wushu that night. Just wonder whether I can do well that night since I had just hurt my ankle. Anyway I will do my best on that night, to promote Wushu to everyone in UCSI, no matter they are staffs or students.

Hopefully this performance will help me in forming the Wushu club here… :p I had just fill up the register form to form this new club here. Thanks to those who help me, giving me lots of guidance and information to form the club here…hmm…maybe you are not reading my blogs, but just I wanna thanks to you all who helps me a lot lah…

Some of my friends keep asking me why I want to switch to UCSI, why I dun wan to finish my degree at UTAR? They feel that it’s a waste of time…but to me, I know what I want, I know what I need…I understand you all quite worried me about my studies, but for sure, this is the Uni that I prefer and the subjects that I am going to take here is really interesting…it is much much better than just study the theory without practical.

I still remember my lecturer who taught me in New Era College, he told me that, we do not need any practical subjects because we will learn it when we work in that firm. Hmm…I am not agree with him, because I am quite a slow learner, to me, the practical subjects is really useful to me. At least we can learn some basic skill before we work in that particular firm.

So, dear friends, don’t need to worry about my studies. I will do my best in this 1 and a half year at UCSI…

Black Saturday

A black Saturday…early morning had to get up early and went to Joanne’s school, to collect her report, be her guardian :p…her form teacher is so long winded…1 student, she can talk for about 20minutes…just telling the parents that need to put more attention on their child, ask the student to work hard on those failed subjects and bla bla bla…we had pick the No.18 at 9am, at that time, is only the 8th student get into the room to take the report…

We went out to have porridge for our breakfast and back to sch around 10sth, still not our turn yet…we wait for almost another 1 hr!!! Meet her around 11.35am…sigh….only 10 in between, takes about 2hrs!!! crazy huh…can talk so long yar…

For Joanne case, as usual, too much activities…means that too much sports…have to cut down some activities…and the teacher ask me to guide her on maths n science subjects… haiya…I had given back all the things to my teacher liao…how to guide her!!???

After that, on my way to get my car, met a person that I dun wish to see, but he caught me…haiz…jus a simple Hello n Goodbye…then quickly “ran away”… :p

A raining afternoon, nice to rest and sleep…I just took about 20 mins nap, then have to go out again…to get my drawing stuffs from 1 of my Master who is an Art Teacher too…I think this is the best time I had for today…enjoy the little children drawing their clown…the studio is full of children, the time when I reached, there’s about 10 to 15 children…

And then, as usual, went to Chinwoo for training…erm…it’s only Master Ken and Master Lai…the training is a bit tough…at least to me is quite tiring…doing around 8 traditional routines…non-stop!!! Later then, continue the training with only jumps…thought it will be more relax…hmm…later proof to me that I am wrong…haiz…when come to the XUAN FENG TUI…suddenly everyone just saw me fell down, tears shed out cause of the pain…ya…no doubt…I sprained my ankle again…the right leg once again… “_” the training stop for while, I can still remember Tion Ho, Chun Yee and Joanne carry me to the side, and Cheong went to take the First Aid bag…ha…others I can’t remember at all…I just know that it’s really pain until I can’t walk…some more got to get someone to fetch me home, and carry me to house…this time really become orang cacat…

Hmm…today…is not my day…

Life in UCSI

It seems every time I write my blog in Chinese…I do wish to write in English…erm..just I dun have the confidence on writing English essay…my English is too worse…This is the 1st time to write my blog in English…any error, do let me know, a way for me to learn it…thanks ya…

Have just started my class last week, very interesting in the Public Speaking and the Video Production…have to speak more n more English in the class. Our lecturer, Mr Ken too…but Ken Choong, he is very dramatic n humor…even though his class is 2 hours, but we all are not tired at all, it’s because his voice is so attractive and his movement, keep u look at him…doing those funny action…especially his face. He has a mobile face, like an actor, and yes, he is in drama before…

Mr Ken is about 6 feet tall, huge size, and always looks like a panda, cause of the shadow under his eyes…he love to tell us jokes and bring those jokes to the topic that he is going to lecture…I had attended his 3 class, going to have assignment soon. I think it won’t be too tough…and even we dun need to sit for the exam for this subject. Just that he will examine us through oral…

The other subject is the Video Production. This is the 1st subject to me that learning technical part. Previously, most of the classes are all theories…so bored and tiring…we are require to think for an experimental or Music Video, and this will be my 1st project…if I am not mistaken, we dun need to sit for the exam too…just base on our final project…hurray!!!

And there is 1 more subject that I need not to sit for the exam, which is the Visual Communication…things that we have to do is ART!!! Drawing drawing n drawing…have to come out with creative ideas…drawing class… :s will try my best to draw whatever I can… ;p

Hmm…wat is my 4th subject that I have chosen for this semester yar??

Erm…

Oh ya….it’s film studies…bit of history…and just started the class. Lecture about the history of the Media in all over the world and especially Malaysia Media history!! This should be the most important part. Later we might be going to visit the Film Negara Malaysia which is in PJ.

Next Tuesday, I am going to have my 1st speech in the class, have to talk to every course mate in English…a bit nervous now…preparing my speech…hopefully I can speak fluently in the speech…

10/9/2004
1.25am

生命可贵

是不是我开始老了？？？怎么开始会听到身边的朋友去世的消息？？？

上个月，才听说一个在新加坡念书的同学，因为车祸而去世。而前天，则是另外一个朋友，承受不了压力的情况之下跃楼自杀！对我而言，那是多么惊讶的一个消息！尽管，我和你并不太熟悉，但彼此都认识，算是朋友吧…你才刚刚出席了自己的毕业典礼，一切才刚开始而已…我们这一群朋友，完全不了解你当时面对的问题及压力。

就是常常有许多的人遇到问题时，不懂得与家人讨论，也不愿告诉朋友，自己一个人躲在一角钻牛角尖，都最后换来的竟是无言的结局！！这叫我们何等悲伤！！你就在我们身边，在我们还来不及伸出援手之前，就眼睁睁看着你离我们而去…

那一天晚上，看着你的遗照，你那阳光般的笑容呢？你那开朗的个性呢？你对我们这群朋友的承诺呢？怎么可以一声不响就将一切跑回给我们！！？我真的哭了！

希望你这么样的决定，让你你得到真正的解脱，我只能祈祷你能安心上路…

我还是忍不住哭了…
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你，又再一次受伤了…这一次虽然不比上一次来的严重，却真的差一点就丢了命！也许真的是佛牌的保佑吧！又或者是我不断地祈祷…不管是怎么样，这一次你真的是将效命捡了回来…真的要好好保护自己了…我不想再一次体验失去朋友的感觉，那是一种很痛的感觉…是一种让人无法去相信，更无法接受的感觉。

我不要！我不要！

我不要身边任何一个朋友出事！如果我每一天地祈祷可以换来每一位的平安，我愿意每一天为大家祈祷！我只想朋友们还有我的家人都可以完完整整，平平安安的生活！

岁月

又是一年了
我做了些什么？茫茫然，不知所措！
一成不变的生活，想要改变么？要怎么改？
这样，不好吗？

我的家，又老了一岁了。。。
不是么？是你看着我长大！
看着横梁与柱子，
日晒雨淋，被无情岁月催产的痕迹，
深深的烙印在我脑海里！

我的钢琴
曾是我儿时最佳的借口！
往往在妈妈要求我洗碗前，
只要跳上椅子，掀开钢琴盖，
就可以免去洗碗一职！

我的小狗
我最好的朋友也是我诉苦的对象！
每当我放学回家，老远就听到你的欢迎，
看见你站在门口尾巴不断在摇摆着，
让我迫不及待地冲回来！

22年了
就这么样长这么大了，
岁月可真的催人老！
家里的两老，虽然头发已斑白，
可还是老当益壮！

要以怎么样的心情去迎接未来的日子？
喜怒哀乐、酸甜苦辣。。。
五味参杂。。。

无题

突然很喜欢林俊杰的歌…

爱情能超越一切，只要你在我身边，所有蜚语流言，完全视而不见，你在身边就是缘，你需要我的傻笑，我需要你的拥抱，爱情就需要这样，它才不会单调，它才幸福美好。

从其中的3首歌抄出来的歌词，的确很有意思。

什么时候开始，我对自己那么没自信了？我不断在质疑着每一件所做过的事情，没法子去相信自己的能力了！朋友们在旁不断地支持着，但是我怎么也学不会了！找不回当初的信心了！这究竟是为什么？

每一个夜晚，我都不停地问自己，我这一整天做了些什么。有做错什么事情吗阿？有得罪别人吗？说话还有口无遮拦吗？每一天不断地在自我检讨。有时候，一点的小事情，我也可以内疚不已，不停向对方道歉。这绝对不是作戏，真的是诚心道歉。只怕，大家对我的评价已不同了。或许看到我这么样的道歉像是“猫哭老鼠假慈悲”吧！我发誓我绝对没有！

我还是没办法好好地控制自己的情绪。尽管已经努力不在人前乱发脾气，但是，每每回到家以后，还是会自己生闷气！生活简简单单不就好了吗？为什么还要那麽去计较别人的眼光？朋友不断告诉我，我并不是活在别人的影子下！但我还是做不到不理会别人对我的评价及看法。是我太小气、太介意吧！

还是希望，再给我多一些时间，去适应这个社会，重新适应这群朋友，重新相信自己…

生活就像洋葱

在快下课时，教授对同学们说：“我和大家玩个游戏，有谁愿意配合我一下？”当中的一位女同学走上台来。于是，教授说：“请在黑板上写下你难以割舍的20个人的名字。” 女生照做了。其中包括了邻居、朋友、亲人等等...

接着，教授说：“请你划掉一个这里面你认为最不重要的人。”女生划掉了一个邻居的名字。

“再划掉一个。”女生又划掉了一个同事的名字。

“再划掉一个。” ......

.......

一直到黑板上只剩下3个人，父母、丈夫和孩子。教室突然变得很安静...同学开始感觉到这不再是一个游戏了。

教授平静地说：“请再划掉一个。”女生迟疑着，艰难地做着选择...她举起粉笔，划掉了父母的名字。

“请再划掉一个。”女生的身边又传来了教授的声音。她，惊呆了！手微微颤抖，缓慢地再一次举起粉笔，然而，坚决地又划掉了孩子的名字。紧接着，她哇的一声哭了。

教授待她平静了一下，问道：“和你最亲的人应该是你的父母和孩子，因为父母是养育你的人，孩子是你亲生的，而丈夫可以重新再寻找的...为什么丈夫反倒是你最难割舍的人呢？”

同学静静地看着她...

女生平静而又缓慢地说道：“随着时间的推移，父母会先我而去，孩子长大成人后，肯定也会离我而去，真正陪伴我渡过一生的...只有我的丈夫...”

其实，生活就像洋葱，一片一片地剥开，总有一片会让我们流泪...

而你，又会作出一个怎么样的选择？

流言蜚语

人生路，总不会一帆风顺让你安稳渡过。其过程当中，更少不了让你伤心失望的流言。古人常说：人生七十古来稀。这话中，不仅说明了要好好去珍惜你的人生，更重要的是，如何从伤心失望中走过来。彩虹就在你眼前！

也许每一个人都在追求平淡的人生。然而，再平淡也会有一些波折吧！你，不是什么知名人士，更不是什么艺人。一个很平凡的女生，有着一个很平凡的梦想。但却万万没想到，要达成这小小的梦想之前，却要经历如此多崎岖不平的山路。

是考验，也是累积经验。。。

你觉得，很辛苦吗？让人在背后对你指指点点，谈论着你的事情。不要紧，因为这一切已经不再重要。流言蜚语，是很可怕的一种病毒。但，有什么可以比放弃来得更可怕？尽管坚持下去，会需要很长的时间来证明给大家看，你已变了！不要放弃，因为他就是你最好的原动力。

相信你自己，更要相信他给你的爱，他给你的一切。这一点的挫折算得了什么？

“谢谢你！我的爱人！只有你，才让我有勇气去面对这一切，否则，我早已放弃了我已拥有的一切。”