当分手成了气候

打从去年开始，就发现到，原来分手时有季节的。

去年的某一点时间，我陆陆续续收到和我一同在新院念书的学弟及学妹，在国外的分手消息。有的在台湾、中国、澳洲、英国、纽西兰等地。本想屈指一算，却点算不完啊！

这陆陆续续的消息，也影响了在马拉西亚念书的我们。

分手的朋友，无不心疼
聆听的朋友，无不心寒

今年，才不过是三月份的开端，夏天都还未到来，坏消息就接踵而来了。

所谓的坏消息，除了近日来莫名其妙的天灾以外，就是这分手的气候。又是一次的屈指一算，天呀！

分手，其实都一样，就只不过是他或她不再爱你了、有或者他或她对你没有感觉了、有或者他或她爱上了其他人了。

当一方提出分手之际，听听他的解释，他给的理由...仔细分析，不难发现这些所谓的解释，都是一些狗屁不通的话而已。他们不过是要用漂亮的文字、语言来掩饰真心话。由谁敢大胆承认他们得分手真正原因？很少，甚至没有...有第三者的，若不是被人发现，我想当事人一定还沉醉在谎言里。

“我和你在一起很辛苦”
“我年纪不小了，还要成家立室。你还小，还有很多选择。”
“我不是在批评你什么，但是希望你能够将你的形象搞好，因为我有一些女性朋友也是......”
“我觉得你不是很会穿衣服...”
“我带你出来，不代表你就是我的女朋友...”
“我很忙，你的生日，我不能帮你庆祝了...”
“我刚刚忘了开电话铃声，因此没有听到你的电话...”
“我没有这么多闲情来回你的短讯...”
“我今晚上要和朋友看球赛...”

很多时候，当一个男生不再注意你了，他们都会开始制造许许多多创意的谎言来掩饰他已经不再喜欢你。他们不会马上和你分手，也许还没有找到更好的，所谓的骑牛找马就是这样子。

有的更甚，谎言都不说了，直接人间蒸发。

有的会“情不自禁”地拿你和其他女生作比较。尤其是比较外在美！一个男生若会介意你的外表，那么女生，你应该提高警惕了！他不会喜欢你太久，因为他的心目中已经有了一个模范，就只不过等待着看谁最接近而已。

一个真正爱你的人，就会爱你的全部。不管你是高、矮、肥、瘦，单眼皮或双眼皮...甚至距离远近，都不会是分手的中心点。

一个人一旦有心要分手，它可以编出许许多多的理由与“苦衷”...

当分手成了一种气候，影响的不只是已分手的朋友，这分手的效应，还深深地影响了身边的情侣。有的听了会担心、会紧张自己的恋情会否面对同样的问题...在这种过分担心、过分紧张的情况下，往往有更多的情侣加入了这大气候。

不要轻易被这股气候所影响，相信自己的选择，相信你的另一半。不要让这股气候，影响了你们之间的感情。能够携手同过的，最后的果实一定让你回味无穷。

爱情

爱情路上总是崎岖不平

有的人跌倒了
重新站了起来

有的人跌倒了
却也不愿再站起来

擦伤的伤口
疤痕永远留在
那是永恒的记忆

航在爱情洋上总是浮浮沉沉

有的人掉进海里
苦苦挣扎

有的人站在船边缘
岌岌可危

能够站在甲板上的人
又有多少？

能够过关的
都活了过来
挨不过难关的
如今都在舔着伤口

有时候
爱情就像走钢线
寻找刺激之余
也要懂得寻找平衡点

两个人一起走钢线
需要的不只是默契
还有携手同过的心
缺少了任何一样
两人都无法到达终点

走在钢线上
遇上了难题
要懂得沟通
一旦大吵起来
就会失去平衡
掉下去

你
站起来了吗？

你
站在甲板上了吗？

你
找到了平衡点吗？

人性

人之初，性本善...
人之初，性本恶...

曾经，两位学者为了这性本善、恶之分，
立出了许许多多的论点。
曾经，辩场上的辩论员，
也同样为了这两个句子，而抖个面红耳赤。

人性本无善恶之分...一切皆由心起...

就贪心，可以迷惑你、怂恿你、控制你、害了你！

有人可以为了钱而想尽办法干坏事
偷、骗、拐、抢等不正当手法。

钱很重要！
但是有必要去偷、骗、拐、抢吗？

为了一时的甜头
而毁了自己的前途
那样值得吗？

你贪图那一时的快钱
让自己陷入困境

你原本的大好前途
如今只有烂命一条

就因为这一点点的诱惑
令你永不超生
没有翻身的余地
也无法在该继续行业立足

曾经甚得老板器重的你
就因为贪
而前程一片黑暗

人之初，性本善吗？
还是
人之初，性本恶？

Trip

We were discussing for the trip this afternoon...

We, include Angie, Jas, Ting Fong, Sam and me...5 of us...planning to go somewhere else for our holiday.

Penang
Langkawi
Kuala Selangor
Genting Highland
Cameron Highland
Kuantan
Redang
Pangkor

I want to go Langkawi...I never been there before...although most of them saying that Langkawi is the boring place...not worth to go...but have they ever think of our situation?

I do wish I can go to Redang, but it's too expensive to me...

My dear pig is going to Sabah...he can climb the Mount Kinabalu... but I can't go...for the same reason...it's expensive...due to the financial problems...I can only choose those near and cheaper place...aiks...

hmm...nvm...I'm sure next year, I will have the chance to go China...that is the promise between piggie and doggie...

Finally

Finally I finish the documentary script d...Tired~~~

Later still got class to attend...then assignments again...

Hmm...the next script I'm going to write is about horror story...but I'm writing the synopsis in Chinese now...to get better feel...hehe~~ once I finish, must get someone to help me on traslation d...cos need a lot of desciption on the background for each scene...

I miss my Winnie the Pig... +_+

BUSY

As a final year final sem student, it's really tension...I have tons of assignment to complete...and all of the due date are quite close...therefore, most of the time, after my class, i will stay at home to do assignments. I really don't have enough time to finish it...

For the coming month, I will be more busy than now because within one month, I need to hand up about 8 assignments...that's really a lot to me...then I need to prepare for 2 subject's presentation...and 2 papers for final exam...

I will be completing my semester by mid April...then there's a 2 mths training before I graduate.

Internship again...I have been to Sin Chew Daily, 988 Radio Redifusion for internship...and temporary marketing assistant in PYT Jewel and Times for 3 mths...I have touch on Press, Broadcasting, Advertising...now it's time for me to look for production job...as an editor...that's my favourite...

Have a little chat with my mom...she said I used to tell her I hate to study, hate to continue my degree programme...but finally, I manage to study till the final sem, and I'm graduating soon...she's actually very proud of me...

I told her, I'm not the best student in class...I might not be graduating with flying colours result...but at least I can pass every subjects...just that...as long as I get the degree cert...

For the coming three mths...I will not be free for entertainment and trips...aiks...must finish my study...

充实？充实！

生活没有过去的百般无聊
但又不致于忙碌得没有黑夜白昼
刚刚好...

有多少时候
我们可以活得刚刚好？
要珍惜当下的刚刚好

未来的日子
或许会更烦恼
更忙碌
又或者
反之
非常得空
非常无聊

人生若是轻松度过
没啥意思
总是有起有落
才能衬托出美丽的人生
生活才是多姿多彩

忙碌的时候
做该完成的工作
空闲的时候
可以偷偷地想想他
回归到现实生活
每个人都有自己的工作
每个人都有自己的任务

生活在这地球上
都有活着的理由
因此
不能随便放弃自己
迷茫完了
就得面对
尽管面对是痛苦的选择
痛苦过后
又是美食丰收
何乐而不为？

Wushu Judge Training Course

I'm back from the Wushu Judge Training Course...It's interesting, and a very new thing to me...

As a wushu player for almost 5 years, never thought of being a judge...I just attended the course of the Wushu Judge and had just finished the exam...All of us haven't know the result yet...I'm not sure whether I pass the exam or not...but no matter how, I will still continue on this line...will improve myself, in terms of the knowledge of wushu and skills...

It's about 48 of us, and all of us need a lot of practise for the new rules and the new system...should have apply all the knowledge that we learnt in this 5 days when we are teaching...

Back from the camp, now is the time for my assignments and exams...half dead... =_="

Tension

These few weeks, I will be very busy....busy in my assignments, my classes, my exams and my wushu thing.....

I really feel that I don't have enough time to complete all the things that I need to complete...

Tomorrow I am having my Media Law midterm...only me alone sitting for the exam...why? It just because I will be missing from Uni for 1 week...

I will be attendting the Wushu Judge Training Course which will start tmr until 23rd Feb 06. I have to stay in Bukit Jalil for 1 week...that's why the Media Law exam that I suppose to have it on next Tues, I need to take it tmr morning...

Besides that, I have a few assignments which due on next Fri...thus, I still need to do assignment while I'm having the course in Bukit Jalil.

I have to make an appoinment with the Jabatan Kebajikan W.P for my screen writing assignment....I'm doing the documentary again...this time the topic is regarding the disable people in Malaysia...and this assignment, need to hand up on next Fri too....I'm running out of time....

but no matter how....I will try my best to complete all.....I CAN MAKE IT!!!!

this morning, I've watched a documentary...The Thin Blue Line, by Errol Morris...it's a documentary which based on facts, and all the interviewees are the real person, but the scene are all re-enactment...and Errol Morris use the Noir style for this documentary...

The whole documentary is 1 hour 41 minutes...but the story line is very interesting...you will never know who's the lier until the end of the documentary...It's kind of investigation when he did the documentary...he wanna find out the answer...

It's a case happened in Dallas, Nov 22, 1976, a police officer, Robert Wood had shot and killed. There are 2 suspects, Adam and David Harris.

There's another women police in the police car, but she couldn't remember anything about that case, even the car plate number...

Are there any witnesses? There are...3 witnesses said that they could recognized the guy who shot the police officer is Adam...

While every words or proof were saying that Adam is the murderer, Errol Morris found out some points...some questions...some myth...

This is the documentary that impressed me a lot...not only the way he direct the film....but the underlying meaning he wants to bring out...

Hmm....at least I watched a nice film today...

life is not that hard....God won't put you to the death corner all the time...it just the matter how you think of it...how you going to live with all the problems...and how you going to solve it all...

Tension is just temporary...everything will be fine....

HAPPY DAY for me....

法庭“游”记

2006年2月10日星期五

一个非常冰冷的早晨，我从咳嗽中醒过来，好不容易从温暖的被单里钻出来。今天，很重要！因为，我要到法庭去。

这真是一个难忘的经历。(打死我也不愿再踏足该地…)

星期五的早晨，一如往常，轻快铁站已经布满黑压压的人头。大家都带着那一副倦容，准备上班去。

我和我好朋友(一个愿意义务陪伴我去法庭的好友)，八点半前就必须抵达Wisma Denmark。在这栋大厦里，就有4层楼是民事法庭(Civil Court/Makahmah Sivil)。马来西亚的民事法庭所审判的案件可分为Dalam Kamar或Makahmah Terbuka。我们外人可以进去聆听的，就只有Makahmah Terbuka的案件。

我们走遍了4层楼，才发现到只有一间法庭有Makahmah Terbuka的案件。但是，经过求证以后，才了解到今天不会审判该案件。也就是说，我们白走一趟了！

不过，我们遇上了一位好心的律师。(他长得蛮帅气的，皮肤白白，大概有六尺高，也许是穿西装的关系，所以看上去很整洁，人也自然变得好看。)这律师告诉我们说还有其他的民事法庭在大钟楼那里。

从他告诉我们的资讯里，了解到有关Makahmah Terbuka的案件一般上都会在星期一至星期四内审判。而星期五则会审判其他较费时的案件或者Dalam Kamar的案件。不过，在大钟楼的民事法庭里，也许可以幸运找得到有Makahmah Terbuka的案件。

大钟楼里，除了民事法庭，还有刑事法庭、Makahmah Dagang、Makahmah Tinggi等。

我们挣扎了一番，终于决定搭轻快铁到大钟楼去，为的就是要今天完成我要做的功课。我们都穿得像OL般，踩着高跟鞋一路走到目的地，再慢慢寻找我们的目标。只可惜，运气似乎不太眷顾我们，我们都找不到有Makahmah Terbuka的案件。

正要放弃的时候，我拨了电话给我的讲师寻求协助。也幸好，她后来也仁慈地将报告的内容要求降低。换句话说，我只需要进入任何的刑事法庭，再将其过程报告就好。

我们也就随便选了一间刑事法庭(Criminal Court)，乘他们休庭之际，坐进观众席准备聆听。

等得有点不耐烦之际，发现到那位Jurubahasa走进法官的房间，又出来，向警员比了一个手势，表示还不能开庭。原因很简单，因为法官还在讲电话！！！所有人都在等法官，等一个电话讲不停的法官！！有没有搞错啊！！！真是气煞！！！

我们在里面等了大约45分钟，法官才施施然地走出来。终于都开庭了…

今天所审的都是琐碎的案件，我只是记得法官第一个问题就是：“Kamu nak mengaku salah ke tidak mengaku salah?”

接下来的，就是一堆很模糊的对白。法庭不会很大，大概是一间课室般的大小，但是，Jurubahasa、 Chief Inspector和律师讲话都很小声。他们的声音，细得如蚊子般，我们还得屏着呼吸，才稍微听到一些些的词句。

才审了没几个案件，我就因为咳嗽而中途离庭了。

我在想，到底这样子的法庭，是否真的可以让那些想了解实情的人，听到他们所要的资讯。让我更好奇的是，为什么法官一开始就是问问题？而不是先将该名罪犯所触犯的罪行说一遍吗？

整个程序，是否正确？我不知道…

辨方律师在提出论点的时候，声音细微得像蚊子，我真的不知道，法官是否听得见…

感觉上， 他们就只是在对着文件碎碎念而已…

这一趟法庭之旅，算是有收获吧！可以交功课就算了啦！！！至于其他的疑问，有机会我一定会请教当律师的朋友…